In Between Worlds

There are worlds in between smiles, in between tears, in between sighs that we often forget hold so much meaning into our real ones. We live a life infested with career, worries and depression that often these worlds are tucked away in a tiny space and we don’t even realize that we are often in those places but space out too much thinking of unimportant things.

Why do we live? Is it to please others? To be the best for somebody? To feel even just a drop of love?Β 

Isn’t it we need to hold ourselves up and learn to love more of our self before we can really give a part of us to anyone?

In between smiles, I have a world where sadness is what smiles mean because you can’t express your feelings in fear of being unaccepted.

In between tears, I have a bittersweet world where the bitterness of no one really cares gets to me but the sweetness of hope that someday God will deliver the right person for me.

In between sighs, the future of my dream is my world where all the places I want to travel is just a few steps away but also a thousand miles too far yet faith is planted in my heart that if I believe through it all and add just a little bit more of hard work, I’ll have my boots on those grounds some day. Some day.

We live to cry, to smile, to break hearts, and to be heartbroken, and eventually to die but most of all while we live, we make sure to really LIVE and not just breathe.

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2 thoughts on “In Between Worlds

  1. Hello Bernadine! Long time no talk! It was our birthday yesterday and I thought about you. So I came here to read your blog and realized how much you’re struggling at the moment… And I want to give you a big hug! I also want to tell you that I had similar feelings & thoughts when I was your age, and had to deal with severe anxiety for a few years. But somehow things got better and better, and here I am today, doing quite well. I’m currently reading this book and maybe you’d like to give it a try as well? Could give you some hope πŸ™‚

    http://www.amazon.com/Pam-Grout/e/B001HCWQX4

    http://www.amazon.com/E-Squared-Do—Yourself-Experiments-Thoughts-ebook/dp/B00B2JSRAS/ref=la_B001HCWQX4_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1386946106&sr=1-1

    Love,

    Julie xox

    • Hi Julie! Aww thank you for the concern! *Big hug back* Yes, life is really tough sometimes and I guess we just have to move past it. Belated happy birthdayyyy! I haven’t been really active in mail for the past few month because I got really annoyed with a lot of mail getting lost plus, my life struggles and disappointments and lack of money, so I stopped for a while. I’ve been keeping in track with one of my penpals thru email so we didn’t really miss out. It’s late but I am planning to send a birthday mail for you, since I only have like 2 penpals at the moment and I’ve finally got some money budgeted for my mail hehehe πŸ™‚ I’ll try to peek at the book you recommended and see if I’ll like it πŸ™‚

      I am really grateful to have a friend like you, thank you πŸ˜€

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